Thursday, February 02, 2006

Renegotiating My Faith

This thought hit me the other day. I feel like I've been on strike from God for a couple of years now. I won't go into why. Let's just say I've been having a crisis of faith. Well now that I'm starting to seek again...I feel like I'm renegotiating a new contract. I just don't believe like I once did. My faith has been shaken. In my renegotiation time, I will be trying to explore just what it is I believe and how I believe. It's all different now. Just like everything else, it will be a journey. So, since no one else is around, I will tell myself to, "Have a nice trip."


Anonymous said...

A university prof was frequently confronted with doubting students who would say--

"I'm really struggling with faith. I'm not sure if I believe in God."

And they would cringe thinking the great prof would be offended by their doubts....

But he would simply smile and say:

"What God are you doubting?" "If you're doubting a distant, disinterested, mean-spirited, judgmental, war-mongering-kind of God seen on TV, then I have doubts about that kind of God too."

Maybe it's time to take a long hard look at the God who lived and transformed a world through Jesus....

My 2 cents. Keep the change. ;-)

Yer bud,
Mark Bushor

sarahjanesina said...

Well, I've been praying for the seeking to begin for quite some time, it's nice to see that prayer answered...and I'll keep praying...and I know that 1)God isn't threatened by your questioning.... 2) He promises if you seek, you'll find....
Keep knocking CLM! The door will open!