Thursday, February 02, 2006

Renegotiating My Faith

This thought hit me the other day. I feel like I've been on strike from God for a couple of years now. I won't go into why. Let's just say I've been having a crisis of faith. Well now that I'm starting to seek again...I feel like I'm renegotiating a new contract. I just don't believe like I once did. My faith has been shaken. In my renegotiation time, I will be trying to explore just what it is I believe and how I believe. It's all different now. Just like everything else, it will be a journey. So, since no one else is around, I will tell myself to, "Have a nice trip."


Anonymous said...

A university prof was frequently confronted with doubting students who would say--

"I'm really struggling with faith. I'm not sure if I believe in God."

And they would cringe thinking the great prof would be offended by their doubts....

But he would simply smile and say:

"What God are you doubting?" "If you're doubting a distant, disinterested, mean-spirited, judgmental, war-mongering-kind of God seen on TV, then I have doubts about that kind of God too."

Maybe it's time to take a long hard look at the God who lived and transformed a world through Jesus....

My 2 cents. Keep the change. ;-)

Yer bud,
Mark Bushor

Sarah Burch Gordon said...

Well, I've been praying for the seeking to begin for quite some time, it's nice to see that prayer answered...and I'll keep praying...and I know that 1)God isn't threatened by your questioning.... 2) He promises if you seek, you'll find....
Keep knocking CLM! The door will open!