Thoughts Continued...

I do love you.
I want to be with you.
But I want to be a man you want to be with.
And I am not.
Life has broken me and I don't know how to pick up the pieces and keep going.
Until I can figure it all out, I need patience.
But I'm afraid patience is wearing thin.
You want me to ask God to help me.
Well, I have.
But it's hard since I feel like God let this happen.
And I don't trust him like I used to.
When will he open a door and let there be a light at the end of the tunnel.
I've never sought riches.
I've never sought fame.
I just want to be fulfilled.
I want to live a life that means something.
I want to love and be loved.
If that's too much to ask, then I don't know what to ask anymore