Sarah left this for me to read.
"God gives us the vision (to be a catalyst of change in the church) then He takes us down to the valley to batter us in to the shape of the vision. And it is in the valley that so many of us faint and give way. Every vision will be made real if we have patience. The vision is not a castle in the air but a vision of what God wants you to be. If you have ever had a vision of God, you may try as like to be satisfied on a lower level but God will never let you. He is after you, Marty! Because He loves you! He believes in you! So do I! I love you!"
I am trying to believe this but it's difficult due to the things that have happened to me. I'll keep trying. That's all I can do.