Thursday, March 13, 2008

Do Over

"I would probably choose not to slave away as a pastor for a church and actually find something that like makes some money and lets me travel."

This is the answer given by one man on the Weekend America podcast when asked what he would do if he were given a do over. I can relate.
If I were given a do over I would continue my art education/career instead of forking into becoming a minister. Seminary was tough. I've never been as lonely as I was at seminary because it was a lonely experienced in the midst of a sea of people. That's the worst kind. I went through some really bad depression while I was at seminary. Then, I graduate and eventually become a minister only to be treated like crap, lied about, lied to, used up, chewed up and spit out by the very people I was trying to serve. For a while there I thought I could make a difference. I thought I could be a catalyst for change in the way we do church. I thought I could use my creative talents for God. I guess I was wrong.
The only problem with this scenario is I would miss out on meeting some pretty awesome people including my wife Sarah. So, chalk this up to a cathartic writing exercise inspired by a random question on a radio program. Then again, if I could go back and do it over with the knowledge of future events, I could find Sarah earlier. That could work.
What would you do over?

2 comments:

jon p. said...

Hey Beavis... what about me? You would've never met me and we would have never collaborated on the legendary "Buttcracker Suite".

Butthead

Anonymous said...

And you never would have met me too. :-)

Frankly, I don't believe in do overs. Otherwise the people & experiences that have molded our lives would have never happened.

Even when we're used, neglected, chewed up & spit out, we learn something about God, ourselves and human nature.

My 2 cents. Keep the change.

pax,
mark bushor